I took a pregnancy test when I woke up Thursday (3.24.16). I seriously did NOT think I was pregnant this month. I had 2 odd symptoms that made me wonder over the last week, but I still wasn't convinced at all... my boobs have been extra sore and sore earlier than usual each month and Jazzercise has been tough over the past week.
We started trying in December, I guess you could say. We decided on the way back from Helena in November that we would stop trying to prevent it from happening - fist bumped actually as we strolled through the delta ;) So romantic.
I was "late" in December, so I thought maybe it had happened already - but on the FIRST month?? No way. Took a test... negative. No biggie. January was a month of sickness for both of us. February - took a test... negative. I felt a bit of disappointment and sadness in Feb when I saw negative. I wasn't disappointed or sad because I wanted a baby NOW. I have been more worried that we would have trouble getting pregnant. I've seen so many friends and some family members struggle to have a baby... and it's so hard not to think it will happen to you. And then the month I really didn't think it was happening = POSITIVE!
I had a serious peace about this not being the month for us though. I prayed about it and asked God to take over and remove my sense of wanting to control the situation. When we got back from Hawaii, our best friends little boy - Hudson Lais - passed away. It rocked our world - we were so sad and our hearts broke for our friends. My mind and heart was 100% focused on their family.
So... on Thursday morning when I took the test when I woke up, I saw a faint plus sign on the result window. It was questionable. I started getting ready for work and looked at it a few minutes later - it was a more defined plus sign. Still questionable. I went to work and carried on with the day as usual. I had a work party to go to that night after Jazzercise, so I ran by Walgreens on the way home to get some more tests - this time, the kind that says "PREGNANT" or "NOT PREGNANT" :) We were heading to Helena for Easter weekend on Friday morning, so I bought some Easter eggs, grass and packed some other goodies I thought of to surprise Tripp with the news... if it was actually happening. The fact that I could sleep and wasn't dying to tell Tripp is a serious indicator of how much I did NOT think it was really happening!
Friday morning - I woke up, took a test = PREGNANT. I was shocked. For years, I've dreamed about what it would feel like to see those words show up as I held the test in my hand. I couldn't believe it was really happening! Thank You, God. This was me in the bathroom with both tests. YAY!
I wanted to tell Tripp immediately SO BAD, but I wanted to surprise him and make it fun so I kept quiet. I went to Jazzercise and then we drove to Helena. Almost 5 hours in the car... me knowing Baby Hollowell is growing inside me... him not so much!
When we got to Helena, I put an Easter basket together while he was helping his mom with the chickens ha! I took some pics... I was sneakily running around and nervous Tripp was going to come upstairs and catch me ha!
In the basket was: a stuffed bunny rabbit, a book I bought Tripp in San Francisco for us to someday read to our babes, eggs and 2 positive pregnancy tests with a note that said "Our sweet baby bunny is on the way!"
Before we left for dinner, I asked him to come upstairs to help me with something. Told him to sit on the bed and close his eyes. I made some joke to lighten the mood about me getting a dog because I could tell he was super confused and nervous. Put the Easter basket on his hands, told him to open his eyes and it took a few seconds for him to see... then "WHAT?!? Are you serious??? I knew it!" BIG smiles, Holy Sh**, Joy and OMG looks. We couldn't scream or go crazy since his parents were in the house, but I just couldn't wait until Sunday to tell him. It was a fun, muted, special moment :) Based on the predictor/calculator in an app I have, it says I'm due November 30th, 2016. Eeeekkk!!
This was his "HOLY SH**" face haha!
My boo is going to be a daddy :)
Over the weekend, I denied Mary Ann and Jay's kind cocktail offers. I poured my wine in Tripp's glass so they wouldn't be suspicious and I smiled while I cramped over the weekend (read that it's normal).
So grateful for our baby bunny! I've been praying for God to take care of this baby and keep him/her healthy and growing. So blessed and cannot wait to start this new chapter of life with Tripp. He will be a wonderful Dad. My baby daddy!
All four tests taken four days in a row... On our bathroom counter Sunday night :)
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